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I didn’t mean to neglect this blog for so long. Or any of my blogs, for that matter, as the only blog I’ve updated somewhat consistently is my writing blog (partially because my writing buddy constantly nags me about it, partially because writing has gone rather well lately). It’s been a mish-mash of various reasons why I haven’t updated in well over a month. I have started several posts, but then never finished them.

Partially it’s because my diet’s been completely off. On days when I have dance class I struggle to eat enough, mostly because after strenous exercise I just don’t have an appetite – but then my appetite is through the roof the day after, and I feel like I just cannot eat enough to even feel not hungry, let alone actually full. I’ve now realised I have to do this food thing properly – not just eating little enough, but eating enough. And eating proper foods instead of some proper food and then unhealthy snacks. I’ve started doing Intermittent Fasting again, mostly because it worked really well back in May/June, and stopped drinking soda (and starting to remember to actually drink water instead…). I’ve also started paying more attention to what I eat. I didn’t gain too much weight while I was eating whatever, though, so that’s good.

Another reason is because this exercise thing has been… well. Not exactly non-existant, but just less. I’ve gone to dance class, but due to my toe problems now that it’s getting colder (probably some kind of rheumatism) I haven’t been able to actually wear dance shoes in class, leading to not being able to work much on my technique and so on. And then I’ve put far too much pressure on myself (quite ironic since I’m not even competing this year), which has led to my mind going blank in nearly every single dance. It’s not even any of my new dances (I’ve started to learn some intermediate dances even if I’m still stuck in primary) – it’s those that I’ve learnt ages ago and should be able to dance in my sleep. I know the dances, but somehow feeling that I have to do them perfectly now causes me to stress out. And then I’ve left dance class with a less-than-stellar feeling, to put it mildly. It went far better on Monday, though, so there is hope. And I’m going to look for warm exercise socks, such as those meant for winter sports, which will hopefully keep my toes warm and bendy while exercising…

I haven’t been running in a while either. It’s fully autumn now, meaning that it’s dark early, and the nice weather we had earlier is completely gone. Not very tempting to go out running when it’s dark and wet and cold. Not that it’s stopped me before, so I think I might just have to find the time and do it. There have been so many other things going on, that I haven’t felt like I had the time. But of course, with lack of exercise comes lack of energy, so I’m sure it will fix itself once I put my mind to it. I did do some Les Mills Combat, so there’s that.

In addition, with the bad weather, early sunset and general lack of being outside and exercising, it wasn’t quite so easy keeping the depression away. I’m working on it, and it’s not bad enough to be back on my meds, but, well, the motivation for blogging wasn’t really there.

And of course I could blame lack of time. With two jobs, studies, NaNoWriMo coming up (yep, I’m in plotting mode), dance classes, a social life and language learning plus general tiredness I just haven’t had the brain power to write anything, I think. I hope to change that now that things are settling down.

Will keep you updated on how this diet reboot is going anyways 🙂